Monday, March 3, 2008

I've been thinking about this all weekend

I'm in the middle of 3 books right now - Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert, A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle and Change Your Thoughts Change Your Life by Dr. Wayne Dyer. This is funny because I'm really a magazine reader disguised as someone who really wants to read a lot of books.:) All 3 books are definitely different - but there's a common theme - being your true self. Like I've heard on American Idol all season - being "authentic". I love the idea of being my best self so I love reading these books. But after awhile I started to wonder - can you really find your best self or be your best self while you're raising children? Raising children takes almost all selfishness you might have had and squashes it. I guess it doesn't even have to be your selfishness - just the time you take taking care of yourself gets somewhat squashed. In Eat Pray Love Elizabeth Gilbert takes a year off to travel to 3 continents, in Change Your Thoughts Change Your Life Dr. Dyer takes a year of his life to study the Tao te Ching - I can barely squeeze in a shower every day. Then I brought it up to my mom - "Can you take the time to find and be your true self while raising children?". She didn't even hesitate with her answer - "It's pretty hard to". Interesting. So, I've decided - while raising my children I will be the best self I can be - and when they are grown and fabulous (that's what happens right?:)) - I will work on becoming my most authentic self. Until then, I will read about being my best self and think about how fun that will be :)! Bridget is ALREADY her best self - shown very obviously here.


Lindsay said...

That is so interesting and profound, big word for a mom;)
I've stressed out trying to do the play in my "free" time and I feel like it's not good for me or Benny for me to get too stressed out trying to keep up with my desire to be creative.
Great post.

Lindsay said...

PS When I watched the author from "Eat Pray Love" on Oprah someone asked her, well what if you have children? And you could tell her answer was like well it's hard and you can't take off for India. I felt like they quickly moved on to the next question.